N.52 On Thoreau

Henry David Thoreau wrote, “Our life is frittered away by detail…simplify, simplify.” He also wrote, “For my greatest skill has been to want but little.” And, “In wilderness is the salvation of the world.” And, “Must the citizen ever for a moment, or in the least degree, resign his conscience to the legislator? Why has every man a conscience then? I think that we should be men first, and subjects afterward. It is not desirable to cultivate a respect for the law, so much as for the right. The only obligation which I have a right to assume is to do at any time what I think right.”

This is why we we walked Walden Pond. This is why we visited his grave.

Read and reread Thoreau. 

N.41 When You Are Happy, I Am Happiest

To observe you all in the kitchen making cupcakes today brought me such joy. For each of you to make your own flavors, each with a unique theme—Nature, Love and Smoothies—was impressive. My joy came not from the actual process itself, which was very messy, but from seeing each of you completely focused, energized and passionate about what you were doing. Taking pride in the activity. Fully invested in the outcome. The best was your giddiness and smiles. My joy came from your joy. As a parent, I realized that when you are happy, I am happiest. 

N.38 How We Choose to Spend Our Time

Time, no matter your age, is too precious to let pass without intention. You are the judge of how best to spend your days. Opinions of outside parties needn’t be of much concern. Your accomplishments — the love you share, the friendships you form, the work you do — will make the case for how well you have spent your time. No one else knows what touches your soul, what ignites your emotion. Sitting on a porch, in silence, gazing in wonder at your surroundings, may seem like unnecessary idleness or even laziness to others. However, if this sort of endeavor lifts your spirits, focuses your mind, brings perspective, as it does mine, then do it often, and without remorse. If walking is your thing, or running marathons, or climbing mountains, or making art or starting businesses, then do these things. No one is in complete control of their ultimate destiny. There are far too many variables that come into play. What we can control is how we spend the time afforded us.

N.33 Seek Not Recognition

Do not pursue anything for sake of obtaining credit or recognition, fame or glory. Few will be impressed by what you do. And those that are, won’t be for long. Why does another’s admiration matter anyway? Strive to accomplish something because it is right and good. Strive for your own quiet pride. That should be enough.

N.29 On Regaining A Child’s Perception of Time

As a child the passage of a single day seemed to last a lifetime. Time, as I perceived it in my youth, was a slow moving current that carried me through each day. When I entered my late teens and early twenties time began to speed up. After college, time accelerated even more and since then it has continued to gather speed with each passing year.

I think this holds true for most. That’s why the expressions “how time flies” and “seems like only yesterday” are so often used when discussing the past. I have read that our perception of this acceleration is due to the actual measurement of a unit of time over the whole of our lives. When we are young, an hour accounts for a far greater percentage of our total life. As we grow older, an hour becomes a smaller and smaller fraction of our total time on earth. 

Whatever the cause, I have been working on ways to slow down my perception of time. One way is to simply sit still. Stillness, without distraction, slows time. Some days, when I get home before your mother and am excited for her return after another day of work, I stop all that I am doing and wait. I put away my phone, close my computer, I don’t even reach for a book. I just sit and breathe. I believe it is exacerbated by my anxiousness for her arrival, but in these moments time slows significantly. 

As for how to slow time during other periods of the day, and do so routinely, so as to expand our conscious lifetime, I will be sure to let you know as soon as I figure it out.

N.28 Anxiety

Soren Kierkegaard wrote, “Anxiety is the dizziness of freedom.” That is so often the truth, in times of peace and prosperity. When things are going well. When food is plentiful, you have adequate shelter, and there is no real fear for your safety or the dismantling of a civil society. In other words, when we have choices.

You’re grandfather has said when he was growing up there was “an abundance of nothing.” He compares that to today, when he says there is an “abundance of everything.” Is it this abundance of everything, the overwhelming number of choices we have, that creates the dizziness? Today we have access to everything. You can pick up your phone and look at people living lives you wish you had, browse a million products you wish you owned. Maybe I am veering into envy, and away from freedom. Besides, Kierkegaard lived in the early 1800s. Certainly there was an abundance of nothing back then.

But what if our freedoms are limited, or taken away? Is the dizziness stabilized? What then comes from the suspension of freedom? From oppression? Is it a level of contentment? It seems counterintuitive that this would be true, but having fewer choices, restricting one’s life to a box, so to speak, might that relieve us from our constant striving, i.e. the dizziness of freedom? To a degree, possibly. That said, limiting freedoms more likely leads to a revolt of the individual’s mind and soul, and ultimately a sudden and radical demand for change by the masses.

I have gone off on such a tangent, I am not even sure of my point. I suppose it’s this: To cope with anxiety, find a way to be content with your place in life, whatever that may be. No easy task, for sure, but that is the solution. Try this next time anxiety flares. Set your eyes on a flower, the sky, a loved one. Marvel in your surroundings, at the miracle of life, and try to let all else melt away.

N.14 Contentment

Somewhere I heard the phrase “restless striving.” This phrase has stayed with me, as I feel it very well describes the state in which many of us live. Perhaps it is our restless striving that carries so many of us from one phase of discontentment to another. 

Soren Kierkegaard wrote, “Anxiety is the dizziness of freedom.” The fact that we have options, i.e. freedom, is the root cause of our anxiety. This freedom leads us to believe there is always something else out there that might be better for us. We could live in a different city, send our children to a different school, have a more fulfilling job, a better home, and so on. We are constantly pondering numerous alternatives to our current state, hence, the anxiety.

This day and age, contentment seems a dying concept. Is it possible to continue to strive, to work to achieve the goals you have set for yourself, while fully appreciating your current lot in life? Maybe you will accomplish great things. Maybe all of your dreams will come true. And maybe they won’t. There are many unknown variables that will dramatically alter your course, but if you are aware and can accept this inevitable randomness, and can continue to strive while remaining content with whatever good fortune has befallen you, you will experience a greater level of contentment. If you can do this while transcending society’s view that success is defined by financial status and material goods, better still.

He is happy whom circumstances suit his temper; but he is more excellent who suits his temper to any circumstance.” –David Hume